ok...over the summer i met this guy named ben. we met at the summer service charge, which is basically a bunch of teens from different youth groups go do service projects for 4 days.

so yeah i met him and we pretty much clicked immediatly. i talked to him all summer while i was at my dad's. we got really close, i like to think, even tho we didnt actually SEE eachother haha.

one night when i was txting him on my sister's phone, he told me there was a girl at his school who he's liked for a long time that finally confessed that she liked him.

i acted like it was fine, when really it just kinda ripped my heart out and put it through a meat grinder. (lol).

he acted all concerned taht he was gonna loose me, as a friend, and i said it was ok, he wouldn't.

i didnt talk to him for 3 days.

when i did txt him, i asked him how he was doing. he said crappy. i asked why.

HE GOT DUMPPED.

he said he went to see a movie with the girl and they kissed. then the next day, she txted him saying "it didn't feel right." sucks to be u, dude!

so then he tried sucking up to me. he did apoligize, btw. but it just wasnt the same as before. it was....awkward. like i was his second choice. sorry, i dont play second fiddle.

we planned a date anyway. it was supposed to be yesturday. we'd go see a movie, hed meet my rents...u kno, the works. we had it all planned out.

then he bailed. he explained that he had drivers ed that week and football practices every night. well, fml y dont u!

so here i am. alone...sitting at home.

i messaged him on facebook saying that my mom went crazy and said no dating. (which isnt a lie, she disaproved of ben's picture when i showed her. apparently, he's too old, fat and ugly =/.)

i can't get on facebook. it's blocked. FML....